In Her Handwriting
We sat on the concrete floor of that storage unit for two hours, passing notebooks back and forth under the weak glow of Griffin's phone light, saying almost nothing.
Entry after entry, same handwriting, same clipped tone, spanning years. *W. covered the car repair. W. brought groceries again, said it was "extra from work." W. paid the deposit on the new apartment, told the landlord to say it was a move-in special.*
"She's been keeping receipts," Griffin muttered. "Why would she keep receipts of things he did nicely?"
I didn't answer, because I was three pages further in, and I'd stopped breathing normally.
*October 19 — Tessa's ER bill: $4,380. Paid same night, no discussion. He doesn't want me to tell her.*
I knew that date. Not the number — I'd never seen the number — but the date, because it lived in my body the way certain dates do. Ninth grade. I'd fallen off Marnie Lindqvist's trampoline and cracked my wrist so badly they'd needed two X-rays and a specialist consult, and I remembered lying in that ER bed convinced we were about to have a screaming fight about money we didn't have.
We never had that fight. I remembered Mom coming back from the billing desk looking relieved, saying something vague about a payment plan.
There had been no payment plan.
"Tessa." Griffin's voice had changed. He was holding a different notebook, a later year, open to a page near the middle. His hand was shaking, just slightly, in a way I'd never seen from my brother, not once in thirty-one years.
"What," I said.
He turned the notebook toward me instead of answering.
The entry wasn't about money at all.
*November 2 — N. called again today. I told him not to come near the house. W. was already standing in the driveway before I even hung up the phone.*